sometimes i would like to talk about how i am not an illustrator. it's like 4:30 am and i am not an illustrator. honestly, i swear. i'm a performance and installation artist who is really in to mundane/voyeuristic art. i make a lot of videos of myself doing dumb, intimate things. and i am really in to staged/forced, repetitive acts of intimacy as performance. i wanted to be an illustrator at one point but i hated the people in illustration classes because they were lame/unoriginal so i stopped taking illustration classes. i use a lot of illustrative tools and devices in my actual work now, and everything i post on here is more of...profession, for me. as in, i would ultimately most like to end up as a 'fine artist' in galleries, but i know that in order to make money i need to be adequate at a more practical form of art. i haven't posted a single thing from my thesis work on here because i tend to keep my illustrative self and my 'actual' self separate. but the way i illustrate reflects what i do in my other art a lot. installation and performance comes a lot more naturally to me. i know i'm a fine draftsman, but deciding how i want to draw is very frustrating for me, whereas i am always sure of what voice i want to use in an installation . i feel rude when i say things like this.
i'm just rambling. in other news i am drawing a lot more now i dunno. is it safe to say strange things on here? i love my boyfriend a tremendous amount but i am secretly infatuated with a friend of mine from kansas.
